My Dad said there are good stress and then there are bad stress. This girl is stressed... from work. Yes, it's the weekend but I'm stressed. My boss called me to follow up on the status of the banners and backdrop.I have to chase the suppliers about that.Oh man.There's no rest for this girl. I'm stressed and I don't think this is the good kind of stress. Damn it Lizzie. You're a working woman now. It's all part of the working life. Get used to it!

My mini boss last night when I told her I was going home already said "Bye Liz! Have a good weekend!" Ah... I wish.... Man, what was she still doing at the office at eight in the evening? Working of course! Man oh man...

I'm such a pessimistic person. Always saying I can't. Always backing out without trying. Always thinking of the negative things. This should not be my disposition in life. I'll get nowhere with the kind of mindset I have. I won't ever get to know myself if I always think I shouldn't try, that I can't try. I must open up my horizons. Must explore. I don't want to wake up one day realizing I'm old but I'm still in the same position I have been when I was younger.

You gotta change Liz. Gotta believe in yourself.

Last week, I turned 21 officially. This girl is really no longer a teenager. I had a birthday party held at my house wherein my friends, my family and my boyfriend celebrated with me. We had a blast singing our hearts out at the karaoke machine even though it wasn't so updated. He was so sweet. He gave me a cake from Red Ribbon and bought me the latest Gossip Girl novel.

At work, well I have a lot more responsibilities now compared to my first two weeks stay in the company. What did I expect anyway? I hope to survive the six months of my life there. I've been feeling so lonely and pressured lately. I feel as though I'm cracking under pressure (Okay Kitkath! You're right, I don't cope well with pressure) but I'm holding on. My parents have been so supportive of me. They've been giving me advices and words of wisdom about dealing with work. Thank you Mom and Dad! And thank you God! I'm surviving.

On other matters in my life, well my Alex and I watched Pirates of the Carribean yesterday at Mall of Asia. It was nice to see the mall was not as crowded as it had been the last time we were there. It was a good for a laugh movie. It didn't wow me as much as when I watched X-Men 3. For me, among the three must-catch movies of the year: Superman, X-Men 3 and Pirates of the Carribean, X-Men 3 rules without a doubt.

I also bought a memory card reader from CD-R King. Finally I can post a lot more pics! Yay! Belle's birthday is coming up. I can't wait to see my friends again. I've been missing them so much. Hmm... what to give my kikay friend?

I also brought work home with me. I thought I'd do some work over the weekend so that come tomorrow, there would be less load for me. I'm usually doing three reports on Mondays. Now that I have started, I won't have to rush so much tomorrow.

I miss Alex again...

Ah... Thank God for the weekend. I'm so burned out from working. That's not good at all. Yesterday was the 6th and that means, I've been working for a month now, officially. A month and already I feel like I'm so ready to quit - and not because I don't like my mini boss who can sometimes be such a pain in the ass but because I feel that I am not happy with what I'm doing. Hah! This is what I get for never thinking of my future and for never being brave enough to get out of the box and find where my passion lies. Crap. Crap. Crap. BUT I'm not quitting! I will stay. After six months and I truly feel this is not what I want to do with my life, then - then I'll quit. I envy those people who went out to live their dreams and those who are out there trying to live it.