envy's ugly head sprung up on me just a few days ago. it started because of a project we were supposed to do in Art of Film.we were required to do a short movie which if chosen as one of the best entries, shall be passed by our dearly beloved professor to the Amateur FilmMaking contest.naturally i got so excited about it and tried to think up of a good story for our movie.I wanted to be the scriptwriter and the person to come up with the idea itself as well but then someone else beat me to it.She was my friend and my groupmate as well who thought about an idea and brought it to the table first.Everyone in my group liked it from the start so my pride and ego got wounded and i started becoming really envious of her.My competitive side arose and then i began to critic her every move, almost to the point that I'm about to lash out on her for being the one to shine in the group.I also began to get really irritated with a couple of my other friends whose words and deeds towards me I took as their way of making me feel like I'm stupid and helpless. Thank God for the weekend break. At least when I was finally able to take a breather from the hectic schedule, I got to regain control of myself. I've killed envy's ugly head and I'm no longer irritated at any of them.I'm back to my old happy, rational and confident self. 
Anyhow, speaking of school work, I'm glad I got to finish the radio interview already. We (my groupmates and I) finally got a decent appointment at ABS-CBN so we can interview the radio technician at DZMM.Other than the rude guards at the station's gate, the people at ABS-CBN were okay.They were nice so to speak.At first I thought ABS-CBN had a primadonna attitude with them. After all they didn't really let us in when we first came there with a letter from our school, asking permission to conduct an interview.That first trip left us in vain really. What a waste of money, time and effort.But maybe if I saw one of my cutie celeb crushes at ABS-CBN while hanging out at Starbucks, I would have considered it not a total waste. Anyway, I'm still loaded with a lot of work so to speak speacially since I found out yesterday that I only have one week left to shoot, develop and print my pictures in time for my Photography subject. It sucked that I had to sacrifice my three subjects last Tuesday just for the ABS-CBN interview though... specially when I found out about the quiz our strict gay stat prof gave to the class when we were absent. I lost 20points there and then I didn't get to pass the assignment I did in his subject today because I easily gave up the hope of him accepting my homework. I threw it on the trash can already so it really was such a loss for me. Oh well. It was my fault.Another sucky thing is that I've got a cold which is giving a hard time.I hate having the colds for real. I hope I feel better soon. But cold or no cold, I'm still going out with Alex this Saturday to watch a movie at Greenbelt, Makati.I'm so excited to see him again.*Sigh* Just thinking about it actually makes me dreamy... Ahahaha..I'm such a sap.

I've been busy with school as you all know by now that's why it isn't very often that I have something to write about in my blog.Although this may be the case now, I'm not going to ignore my blog. I love it so from time to time, I still am gonna post entries to keep you guys updated.Anyway, I just wanted to share to you guys how much I am loving my course.I am so glad that I ended up taking Communication Arts and not Nursing,Medicine
or Business--- no offense to the people who are taking the mentioned courses.How I ended up as a Communication Arts major is actually an unplanned decision.This is really my safety net so to speak.You see when I was a senior in high school, I still had absolutely no idea whatsoever what I wanted to take in College.I never gave it a thought...So when the time came for me to get apply for College,I had a difficult time deciding what to write down as a course.My parents and relatives wanted me to take up Medicine or Nursing.After all,my family and Medicine go a long way back.I mean, my Dad wanted to be a doctor, my mom wanted to become a nurse, one of my lolas was a nurse, her husband a doctor and their kids a doctor and a nurse..and well you get the picture.Business on the other hand was a spur of the moment decision I tried to make because I couldn't think of the course I wanted to take. Thankfully, my Dad didn't push what the course they wanted to me, their only child. Instead, he made the decision that I should take up Communication Arts.In his words, "that's where you're really leaning towards on considering all the things you've wanted to do during your elementary and high school days." To stop school was never an option, in case you're wondering why I didn't just take a year off from College to think about what it was that I wanted to do with my life. I'm glad I ended up in this course because I am so loving the things we do in our major subjects.It catches my interest and it hasn't failed to excite me every time.In short, my point really is that I know I got in the right course because I love it.

7 months and counting... Yes that's how long i've been with him..and up to this time, everytime we turn a month older than before, i still can say "Wow" because I am so amazed and happy that he's with me.I've been through so much pain in the past but having him with me now has healed my wounded heart.He's the one who makes me smile, smile my mega-watt smile.He makes me so happy, I turn into a walking, grinning fool.Well what can I say? I'm in love.

Sure, our relationship is not always sunshine and happiness. We have our disagreements/arguments too.We don't always get to spend time with each other as much as we want to.It makes me sad at times honestly but I'm still holding on. Yes, I'm holding on because I believe in him. I believe in our love.

Some people told me to break it off with him. Call it quits. But I'm deaf to what they say. After all why should I give up on the person who makes me so happy in love that I feel like I'd probably float away if i didn't grab on to something to keep me on the ground? I have faith in him.When he tells me we'll make it work, then we can make it work.To love is to believe as well as to trust. And I love him. I trust him. I believe him. I believe in us.