Because this school year is fast filling my time with school work load, it has once again turned me to the geek that I once was when I was still in high school. Our professors from the past two years had told us that in my course, AB Communication Arts, a student has it easy for the first two years of her life in school but come junior year, *wham* suddenly we're super busy.Rushing, rushing, rushing... always rushing nowadays.We hardly have enough time to eat actually considering the fact that our terror major professor in Radio Broadcasting and Writing for Radio and TV has asked us so kindly if we could all come to her class earlier so she can finish the lesson with enough time for her to drive home because her car is color coding during our class day with her.Most of us actually wanted to refuse, say "no can do" but who could say no to a professor like that? 5 major subjects , two of them belongs to her, our terror prof and she makes sure we know her subjects are a big part of what would make our grade and seal our fate. My homework is piled up and so now, if you wanna reach me I can be found on only two places in school: the library or the internet lab doing research. Add theatre to that and my new beloved org, the school paper and the definition of busy can be written beside my name. But you know what? I love it. Weird? Well, like I said, I am a geek. It gives me this feeling of contentment,satisfaction and pride because I feel useful again.It's so nice to see that my planner, if I actually owned one again, is fast filling up with activities to do. Yes, I am Liz, the geek once more and I'm proud.

this is bad. I wrote a really long entry about how my first week of school went but it's lost. Aaarrrgghh!!! Anyway, here's a shortened version.

3/4 of my subjects this sem are my major subjects.
2 of my professors are terror teachers.(yikes!)
Sir Brian is our professor in 3 of our major subjects.(yipee! he's such a cutie.)
Theatre is going well. I think it'll be a great play. Too bad i opted for usherette.
Lastly, i'm determined to excel in school again.Liz is gonna turn on her geek mode once more.I won't have anymore of the regret I felt when I gave up on Theatre even if it was only a little regret on my part.

A little note to my love: I MISS YOU ALEX...

When Can I See You Again
by Babyface

When can my heart beat again
When does the pain ever end
When do the tears stop from running over
When does "you'll get over it" begin
I hear what you're saying
But I swear that it's not making sense
So when can I see you

When can I see you again
When can my heart beat again
When can I see you again
When can I breathe once again
And when can I see you

When does my "someday" begin
When I'll find someone again
And what if I still am not truly over
What am I supposed to do then, babe...
Do you see what I'm saying
Even if, if it's not making sense
So when can I see you

When can I see you again
When can my heart beat again
When can I see you again
And when can I breathe once again
And when can I see you...again
Yeah, baby
Do you see what I'm saying
Even if, if it's not making sense, baby
So when can I see you again

When can I see you again
Can my heart beat again, baby
When can I see you again
And when can I breathe once again
And when can I see, babe, again

Wanna see you again
Again

--->i just wanted to post this song because this one speaks to me. did you ever have that feeling that you miss someone so much it actually hurts just thinking about it? well...that's how i feel lately. i know my life doesn't have to stop just because i'm longing for someone so bad. but i'm not numb either. i can still feel and whenever he crosses my mind, i can't help but feel so sad. i miss him... and it frustrates me so that there's nothing i can do about it except to believe him when he says he'll work it out and hold on to our love. so this song's for you, my baby. When can i see you again?

"you'll wake up one day and realize you're no longer in love." -- that's what my friend, Ryan told me the last time we got together.How did our conversation get there? This is how:

Setting: Small, classy restaurant near my house
People involved: Me, Sarena and Ryan
Conversation:
Ryan:(referring to his ex-bf, Francis)For the 3 months that i've been with him, i was happy. everything was perfect...and then...one day i suddenly realized, i don't want it anymore.
Me:(furrowing her eyebrows and inching closer to Ryan) how could that be? i thought you love him? How can you just sit there and tell me suddenly you don't feel that way anymore?
Ryan:(shrugs, turns to Sarena and then to me again) I fell out of love, plain and simple. It'll happen to you too. You'll wake up one day and realize you're no longer in love.

"People fall in and out of love every single day.It's not weird. It's reality." - this I quote from my conversation with Dane,one of my friends' ex-boyfriend to whom I commented it's weird that he suddenly finds himself no longer in love with Belle when he once went around telling everyone he knew how much he loves her. I hear about couples breaking up for so many reasons but falling out of love with each other..well...i just think it's the saddest reason i ever heard anyone say.

My relationship with Alex hasn't always been an easy course to sail.We always have trouble getting our time to sync in order to spend time together.It's frustrating really specially on my part because I always wish I can spend time with him. But like I told him,I'm willing to hold on as long as he's willing to do the same.It's a promise we made to each other.

To you,my beloved one i say this: Don't let our love fade away. No matter what people say.No matter what they say.