i am moments away from going to Alex's house. Oh boy. I am having mixed feelings right now. I'm scared. I'm anxious. I'm excited. I must say this is a first for me---meeting the parents. I mean, sure I've met my friends' parents before but those occasions are different from this. I hope I live through this day 'cos my parental units sure are having a hard time right about now. Yes, they are way way freaked out than I am. Here's a sample conversation between me and the parental units:

Dad: No hanky-pankies all right?
Me:Yes, Dad. No hanky-pankies.
Mom: Ihja, I'm telling you. Please don't ruin your future. You have a very promising life ahead of you. Don't think merely of pleasure okay? Study first.
Me: Okay mom. I got it.
Dad: Do you really? Listen to us. We know better.

Yes, yes. I got the picture loud and clear. I am rational and I am smart. I know when not to cross the line... Anyway, for now I gotta go. Alex is here. Details later.

I hate the world today... I really really do... so guess what i'm doing today? i'm sitting in front of my PC again, stuck inside the house without anything interesting to do. I AM SO BORED!!!!
how i miss my friends. it's been so long since we last saw each other. College has been taking up much of our time. i wish we could go out again, the four of us compelete. It'll be so great to be with those guys again...
and how i miss you alex. it's been quite a while since we last saw each other. it sucks that i miss you yet all i can do is heave a sigh and wish i was there with you. i really am looking forward to the day when you and i can finally, finally be together again. but 'til then, i'm just here. bored and missing you soooooooo much.

after college, where will I be? What will I do? I was sitting with my long time friend in school, resting awhile and trying to savor the one hour break we have when the thought crossed my mind. I usually think that time goes oh-so-slowly but that day, I was thinking the opposite. time flies so fast. Come next semester and I'll be walking along the hallways of school as a junior for god's sakes! And the thought somehow scares me. I mean, in just two years I will be graduating and I haven't a clue what to do next. Sure, the usual thing to do is either stay in school and get a masteral degree or get a job but when I think about it, it's not that easy. At least not that easy for me. I've been used to having my friends around, specially Anerine. Everyday of my life, I'm with her. We go to school together, we go home together and we do stuffs together. After college, we'll part ways to pursue our dreams. And although I know it's bound to happen some time, I'm not quite sure I'm ready to face the great big world out on my own. It'll be... different and somehow weird because I'm so used to having her around... *Sigh*

Schoolgirl


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Been kind of a while since I took one of them quizzes. This one was interesting so I took the test. My friends have been talking about premarital sex and all the foreplays that comes along with it. Discussing a topic like this usually isn't part of our usual gab fest but it's what we've been talking about lately and I'm pretty glad we have been. Hearing their opinions about girls who lets a guy get to the bases and engages in premarital sex revealed another side of them I haven't seen before. It made me know them a little better. Well as it turns out, how I saw them, my school friends is exactly who they are: moralistic people. Not that there's anything wrong with believing in NOT doing sex and hitting second and third bases. I firmly respect each and every opinion. There was one thing that got me thinking while I sat there quietly listening to their discussion. It made me question their loyalty to friendship. They told me that they do not like people who do things like that and so if they ever have a friend who is actually doing stuffs like that, they would let her be but they would start to keep their distance from that certain friend. They reasoned out and said that they believe in the saying you are judged by the people you hang out with. I mean, if they really are your friends they'd accept you for who you are right? No matter who you turn out to be... I believe in the same saying too but I also believe that you shouldn't give a shit what other people would say about you as long as you are damn right happy with what you're doing in your life. It's your life anyway, not theirs. Let's face it, we live in a society that is so judgemental. If I'm to always care about what others would think about my every action, then I'd forever live my life looking at my back, wondering if I'm living up to their standards. No. I don't want to live like that. And I don't want my friends to live like that either. Live life. Love life. Now there's a motto.:D